my life in shambles

its been 3 months being a mother to Nur IMan.... all is great... i thank ALLAH...

But sadly,ow whenever there's squabbles and arguement, it will always have someting to do with nur Iman..

I dont understand, but sumhow i have to make myself understand that I am not important in his life animore....even though he didnt say it, actions always speaks louder than words...
He is over protective on our baby.... and I am always to be blame on any mishap that happens..

Or maybe he is just tired being a sole breadwinner in the family....i felt guilty and only god knows how it feels like...

Tonite i realli feel that I am no longer needed in his life...he dont care about my emotions animore...my feelings......no more coaxing...
when was the last time he realli spend time with me at home? when? he dont realli care now.....as much as i know he tried, i dun feel it now.....

does it always have to be like dis....we onli have one kid, and im feeling it rite now....what if we have more....do he still need me in his life?

Nur Iman Sumaiyya, ibu love u very very much...and i never never blame u ... I have always love u my child....